When you grew up in a household where there's no father figure, and you just wandered everyday "will my father ever care for me" "will he ever notice that he still has children to take care off and not always my mom to take care of us?" "when will I ever experience having a normal loving family, without any stress, having a good provider father" Now I am now turning 19 in four freakin days up to now I still wandered those, I grew up and now my father was acting like nothing happened, he was acting like he took are of us, such a narc. Never ever tell me not to hate my father, because up to till now he still is a narc and a gaslighter. on my enrollment in 2nd year, when there's paper to signed about backround about my father, I just leave it blank. Because to me I have no father, but I was I had....