Yeah and part of that is humiliating because no one cared it's just that I don't really care about you actually tell them if it's wrong like you have to tell them if you're not okay like I have never left any script early before only time I have left my youth group early was because of a medical issue that I had but this was just too much for me the thought of that my dad got mad at me for having that happening at all he's like well she's going to have friends too but he doesn't understand having my sister she's an asshole and all so she does not understand he does not understand shit on what the fuck is going on but my mom does because she actually understands like him he had a good life he had a good challenge my mom hadn't been worse than me but but my sister she fucking sucks and no one understands it because she puts on this fucking mask and goes oh I'm okay I'm a good person blah blah blonde with my family fucking sex in the most of the time people that freaking believe me used t