My husband - off and on again husband of almost 16 years- he is destroying my heart and all the healing. He is literally breaking what spirit I have left. Nothing matters to him anymore except the hoe he cheats on me with who looks like a extremely heavy weight ogre. Nothing matters to him except the way people perceive him. He hurts me so much and doesnt ever have the ability to actually be sorry or change. Narcissist to the core. He wants every penny I make and then tells me and our child to figure it out for food for ourselves, figure it out for our bills, for our needs. I do not know who I am anymore. I don't recognize me anymore. I was so happy and pulled together and then he came back to live with me. He said it was just going to be pretend so that he would look like he was stayiing here then he moved in and started the controlling things and the dictating and even yells at me that I am not allowed to talk or speak out loud in public around him. It hurts me.