I feel as if I’ve hit an all time low in my life. I gained a ton of weight, I feel as if I’m around so many people yet nobody really likes me, and as if no matter what I do, I can’t change that. I can’t feel pretty knowing I weigh so much. I feel as if with so many people I’ll never fit in and be someone else’s "number one". It’s gotten bad enough to the point where I’m considering suicide, I wish I could restart, fix it from the start; but I can’t. I feel so alone that I couldn’t find someone to talk to this about. I’m writing on this forum knowing that it’ll sound stupid to anyone else.