I'm so tired, I look so okay on the outside that it's actually sad. It doesn't seem like a lot of things that made me happy makes me happy now, I lost my pet best friend 2 of them. I feel a pain in my chest but I'm calm, it's because I been through this many times and it hurt as much times as I can count. My parents don't even show they love me anymore that it's actually sad they tell me to do this or that well only one, one doesn't even know how to talk to me properly, and I need him the most, yet he doesn't do shit. I'm losing friends and the sad part is I hang out with them almost every day, there just drifting away it hurts so much. I have a bf, and he's the best thing anything ever happened to me, my parents hate him, but he's the one person that makes me forget if I'm mad, or sad, and makes me smile. I love him, and that's probably why it hurst because if he leaves, I'm done, I done, I'm done. It's like he's drifting away so I'm getting prepared to cry, maybe die, but it'll hurt.