i'm so tired I can barely type this its the type of tired sleep cannot fix, friends cannot fix, joy cannot fix I just want to be someones first choice everyone I know always has someone else and I'm just left there alone I FUCKING WANT SOMEONE I WANT SOMEONE TO CARE PLEASE PLEASE I WANT ATTENTION I'M SO LONELY PLEASE I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS I WANT TO KILL MYSELF I WANT TO OVERDOSE I WANT TO HANG MYSELF I WANT TO DROWN