I miss my ex so much. We ended on good terms originally, but I told some people about our sexual relationship and now there's no chance we will ever get back together. Before he found out, he told me he wanted to get better for me, and to finally have time for me, but after he found out, he told me he lost trust in me and was never going to be with me again. He told one of my friends he didn't want to be friends with me either, but he later asked to call group chats I was in and offered to drive me to my practices and get chick fil a with him, just us. It seems like he can't make up his mind about our platonic relationship and it's confusing me so much. All his indecisiveness is making me think we have a chance again, but I know that's not true. I really loved him, I just couldn't keep my mouth shut. I really want to somehow fix us, but even if he trusted me again, he would have to fix his stress and heavy workload. I know that we will never work, but there's a part of me that hopes.