I love her so much i cant stand it anymore. Shes my best friend who has a boyfriend. Shes straight and so am i but i just love her so much. I want everything to be about her and i would do anything for her. Shes super touchy and cuddly with me which makes things 100x worse. I love hugging her and feeling her close. I get so incredibly jealous when shes with someone else. Thats so selfish of me but i cant help it. I need her she all i need. Shes moving to university next year and i wont see her. Im so not ready for that, thinking about it makes me fall apart. Shes in love with her boyfriend. I have to watch the girl i love the most be in love with someone else. I wouldnt wish this pain on anybody. I can never be with her. I have dreams we are together. I buy her anything she wants ill do anything for her.