I feel like an awful person im forcing my friends to call me some dumb name because I hate mine so I have to put them through all that and i dont want to tell them cause i dont trust them or anyone but everythings so complicated everyone hates me and i feel so drmatic because i know there are people with REAL problems, and im over here complaining about school, and self hate, and not being able to do anything right, and feeling like im hurting everyone around me, and not talking to anyone because i hate everyone and want them all dead, also I was dating this girl but i got mad at her a while back which i hate myself for so much because we still ike eachother but were so awkward and im so sorry and i still love her so much and i miss her all we ever do is say hi but she would get me through so many of my problems and now shes basically a stranger and its all my fault.