i wish he would treat me better, youd think after being friends for three fucking years he wouldnt treat me like some random hookup he doesnt like. i wish i pushed him away that night, maybe then i wouldnt have lost my friend. i wish he would also just leave me alone, im trying to move on but he will find anyway to keep contacting me and making me feel like shit for letting him get that close to me. i wanna be able to move on, i wanna be able to forget him, and if i could i wish i never met him, never let him get that close to me, never shouldve put that much trust into one person. i want him to leave me the fuck alone. i dont wanna see him pulling his new girl closer, i dont wanna see that hes completely fine even after the hell i went through. i wish that couldve been us. holding onto eachother like we didnt want to let go, wish he would look at me the way he looks at her. i dont know what he said but now that he hates my guts so does everyone else in school. im tried.