I hate this so much bro. Can I please just play piano or bass without feeling tired and depressed all of the sudden? Or can I paint or draw or write without feeling tired and worthless? Can I please just do something without being tired and sad and done even though I WANT to do something? It’s like writers block but on everything in life and I hate it. And now school is starting so I REALLY have to lock in and practice my instruments but I CANT. It’s like invisible fucking chains dude, and I hate it. I want out. Just let me out, please. I know I have depression, but I lied on the doctors form so my mom/grandma wouldn’t have to see what mental heath problem I actually did have and I could just suffer without causing anyone else harm. I only got diagnosed with slight depression on that quiz but I know it’s likely worse than that but I can’t hurt my mom even more and idk what to do…