August 31 2026: I've been trying to get better, but i cannot find a reason to stay anymore, I used to be the brightest light people knew but one day my light had burnt out, there was no reason behind it, well not that anyone remembered it. I tried to fix it but nothing can bring that same bright light back there's little sparks but yet, nothing that really brought it back, my parents haven't been quite helping with the problem if so they've been making it worse, i try too lose weight, Change my voice, change everything I've hated, but no matter what I've done and changed nothing is good enough for others, i hate how i look, i hate i act and sound, i hate everything about me, the more i look the more of the little things on me. Theres moments I'd lay in my room looking for reasons, but since then the reasons has dimmed down too none. I lived off distractions and Reasons. but there was once i time i lived without caring how others seen me, and how I didn't need reasons and distractions.