a year ago my boyfriend of 8 years admitted he doesnt find me attractive, but that hes still in love with me. we’ve argued bc he wants polyamory and i don’t. hes the love of my life i have no doubt he loves me too bc he moved countries to be w me, but i cant be ok w him being w other ppl. i risked a lot to be w him - my conservative religious family found out abt him, queer couple (trans man/fem nb) but we present as straight so they dont know. theyve accepted him finally and now this is happening. we havent had sex since october, and that was a terrible experience. im too afraid to be intimate with him now because of it. but i love him so much. he takes care of me. he understands me. but this is a roadblock even therapy isnt helping. ill never find someone like him - im not the most attractive, plus size with a lot of health and skin conditions. i cry every day. im so broken inside, everyone thinks we’re the perfect couple and expect us to get married but i think it wont happen.