god im so fucking sorry w and l, i pray to god at times that time would just go back to the start of this month so i could never had made that fucking mistake, i wish i had never pressed that block button, i wish i had never taken s' advice, i wish i had thought it over. if i had done atleast one of those things, then maybe we would still be friends. but now i feel like all of you guys hate me and resent me and think im this vile and disgusting person and honestly, theyre right. i am all of those things, and i hate myself so fucking much for it.