I feel like a failure, nothing i do is working, im really bad at socialising and have a really bad avoidant disorder, ill avoid all people, i dont want to its just when i talk to people i feel scared, vunerable, i get paranoia, i feel like people hate me and are against me, theythink im just a burden or in the way, that im useless because of how i am, so i isolate myself, ive done it so long now that i dont think theres any way of improving myself, even when i was getting support, id want to avoid my support sessions even though the people were kind and trying to help. I dont like the way i am, i get overwhelmed by everything. Idk how to fix this, i quit my job because i couldnt handle being around people, i felt like they hated me and thought i was useless, talked about me behind my back. I felt unsafe. I feel unsafe going back into work, but i need to do something. Idk how to get help. Childhood was bad now im lost and never got help. Trust noone