(Female) I'm gut is telling me to leave this relationship bc it's not good for me (He has threatened to end his life and he doing SH {I'm not against but sum inside me just wants to hug and love him. He's forced me into a polygamy relationship with my best friend. It's hurting me severely..Ik this might sound bad but I want to love him and be in a relationship but at the same time I want to follow my path into being a FFA leader at my school. And I want to get go grades this year but I feel like I might fall behind me in struggles with this relationship I've talk about my relationship on here and a lot of ppl have said to leave AND THANK U FOR THAT but it's been 3 years since Ive last dated sum-one, I'm a very freaky person if I'm being honest I've had a porn addiction and have got caught with that addiction and have yet to get caught masterbating.. but it's like he understands me bc of my freaky side but and the same time it's like well how can I feel loved if your shutin me out?...