My boyfriend pressured me into a trial polygamous relationship with him and my best friend, causing me severe emotional stress and panic attacks. When I told them I wanted to end it, my boyfriend threatened suicide and my best friend abandoned me. Now he is distant—my biggest fear—and it’s starting to affect my schooling. I love him, but is this relationship too toxic to continue? -Lately the emotions have come back I really want to have him leave her, I WANT HIM TO MYSELF GODD**N and but I'm to deeply in love with him but at the same time multiple people have told me to leave the relationship for my own safety... Should I find someone that I know will stay with me and then leave the relationship I am in now or fight it?....Im scared and alone and I can't talk to either of them about getting them apart and it really sucks yk?...And I feel like a shitty gf bc I've down some things to make him jealous bc I was comparing him to fictional men that reminded me of him..apparently I'm the ass