sometimes, i hate that i can't seem to move on when I was the one who decided to end things. And guess what, It's me who keeps running back too. I just miss him so much, it's unbearable at random parts of my life. It's going to be almost a year since we decided to put an end to everything. It's going to be almost 3 months since we last talked. I chose an out on both situations. Even after I weigh things out, I know what is what, I can't help but feel I did something so wrong, that I'll never feel what I felt with him ever again. And it's honestly true, it's been 5 years, and only he can get my heart to explode the way it does. And i hate it, so much. I just want to love someone who is good for me.