My mom is in the hospital for probably 10th time this year due to being an alcoholic and I am so sick and tired of dealing with it. I want nothing more than to cut her off but I can't.. I just can't do that to her plus I think it would make things worse to the point of her death. I feel like I am the only thing keeping her afloat and I hate it. I almost hate her and sometimes wish she would just die. Don't get me wrong I love her so terribly much too, it just been my whole life of this shit. I will be turning 39 in November. My sister had a child and moved away.. even though her and her baby daddy broke up and she is struggling with money and other issues. Its the best thing she ever did was leave here. She can just wash her hands of mom so easy which make things harder on me but IT IS ALL UP TO ME. My husband ha he is no help emotionally or physically really. Sure he will support financially but fuck if he will actually be there.. like in person. And my dog is sick. Fml