Rant #17771

I'm so miserable. No matter what I do, someone bigger than me always shows up and does it better, or he shows me how it's supposed to be done. My efficacy is lost. I want to avoid being seen, I want to be seen and not treated like a lesser animal. I'm always losing territory, hating myself and living in my head is stupid and weak though. I know how little I don't know, I understand that I can't know.