i really hate my mom, she criticizes me all the time, calls me fat, lazy, and the r slur too sometimes. the worst thing is that she's actually… cool sometimes? like, we laugh together… and then a while later she finds a way to be awful again :( I feel uncomfortable around my whole family, my grandma is a guilt-tripper, grandpa sometimes says rude things and they both just hate me, my dad is an alcoholic bitch who doesn't do shit, i hate them all, they hate me, they dont even know what I like, what I do on my phone, and I could never tell them, they would probably send me to a mental asylum lol, one time my mom slapped me in the face IN A SHOP. because I said something (i don't remember, but it definitely wasn't rude) I literally wanted to cry. and I don't have any friends irl so like no one to reach out to. im going to high school and im horrified. my online best friend Rama keeps me alive, I love her so much genuinely and I think I have a crush on her :> she's such an awesome person🙂