I cannot take this pain anymore, ocd cptsd and depression is a daily struggle that i have to deal! It's frustrating and tiring. I don't want to live with this problems and illness. My family is abusive and no one listens to me. My best family moment was with my 12yo brother! Idk, I'm just depressed and numb! I deserved being abused and everyone thinks I'm "faking it" or "overreacting it" FUCK Y'ALL! YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH, FUCK YOU! I WAS BEATEN AND ABUSED LIKE A FUCKIN PUPPET, FUCK LIFE AND FUCK THIS PAIN! I can't have a normal and healthy life cuz of that! Fuck hell! I'm so fucking tired of being mistreated and misunderstood, and not being seen and supported by the others! I hate my father and i love him too! This is terrific and bad for my mental health, I became completely self destructive and self loathing!