I don’t care about luxury cars, mansions, nice clothes, getting rich, or status. I just don’t care at all. If I had those things, what then? What comes after? Why does everything feel the same, and why am I sad all the time like I’m constantly chasing something that isn't even about status? I just can't seem to understand. What are the goals? Getting a job? Getting married? Buying a house? Aren’t they all the same, and will those things truly make me happy? I think no matter how much I have, I'll always ask myself, 'What then?' It's not because I'm ungrateful, but because I can never understand why I feel so drained all the time, no matter what I do or whether I’m having a good day. What am I really doing? And it’s not because I don’t know what my purpose is. I know what it is, but if I know my purpose and don’t chase these worldly desires, am I just living until I die eventually without knowing how to get rid of this feeling? Or is it because this feeling? A sense of emptiness