I hate that M doesn't like me back, I thought this year was gonna be different like I would have a boyfriend or that someone would actually like me but that is NEVER gonna happen and i wish i could just be invisible and now everyone hates me because i fought M and hes talking to a prettier girl than me and it sucks because i now know hes type and i'm not it... and my mom hates me because i stopped belivingin jesus christ but she doesn't understand why and its like she doesn't want to understand but she keeps forcing me to beliving in Him but he has not done anything for me and i've been worshipping Him since i was 5 and all He's ever done is make my life worse day by day i literally lost so many people and i've been struggling with everything going on and Jesus isn't going to help me and He never will...