I'm so tired of everything actually. I can't do this anymore. My mother constantly taunts me and makes fun of me(She's a boy mom), my brother sa'd me when i was 7. My father is almost never home due to his job. My mother hits me from time to time but it never leaves scars so It's not even that i can call a helpline, and i dont have the courage either. It's so tiring, I'm still just a teen in high school. When i was in 5th grade though my mother tried to strangle me to death due to her going insane from stress and after she got better apparently she experienced memory gap of that period of time so i was told to just stay quiet and never say anything related to it by the adults. I was actually pretty decent at studying before that but after that happened i could barely manage 5th grade. My academic downfall began in 6th grade. I Don't know what to do, everyone's so ahead of me while I'm just constantly tired and burnt out. It's not fair.