I feel like I can't get any better than I am and that sucks because I can do things but not to the extent that I used to before my disability. Now I can't walk around for long times and enjoy being with friends as much as I used to. I feel hopeless. I am also paler and skinnier than before. My collar bones pierce my skin and I'm so tall I just look gangly. I feel out of place everywhere that I am. I wish I could go back to how I was before. I just miss all that I used to have and how much more unconfident I am. I can't gain weight no matter how much I try and doing physiotherapy isn't helping my pain. This is so hard especially since I'm going through it in my grade 11 and 12 year. Anyway I can make it through it will just be a challenge but I think I can make it out.