So i'm a really unstable person. I don't even know where to start. I've been in the psych ward before for some of the stupid acts and being really suicidal but idk what to do this time. I've gotten better in the meantime and i was okay. No REALLY AWFUL thoughts. But recently it really wont go away.. i want to kill myself but i know its a stupid stupid idea. I'm too scared to tell anyone especially my boyfriend. He's got his own worries. And everyone else too. I don't want to talk to any help worker becouse that means i could go to the psych ward and it feels like such defeat to go back. But i don't know what i'm going to do. I hate myself and my fucking life i hate how i feel so stupidly depressed all the time when i was JUST FINE before.
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