My life is so fuck up; I want to continue my studies but why is it so hard? every college entrance exam I applied all failed I don't even know where school would accept me. I don't want to go to a private school because my family can't afford it and some scholarship, I applied to turn me down why is it so hard I just want to get a degree, get a job and help but why is it so hard even finding a part time job is hard what am I supposed to do then???