i recently lost my dad to suicide in October 2025 and i just lost my mom about 10 days ago. i have a lot of things and a lot of memories with my mom and dad that i would love to just talk about but everyone is treating me like its forbidden to talk about my parents and like they have to guard over me. My dad was a really strong man and he did a lot of amazing things in his life , such as saving mine because in 2024 i tried to commit suicide because i felt like i didnt have anyone. He told me i always had him and my mom, i have neither now . ive been drinking and smoking every single day since my mom died . they said it couldve been broken heart syndrome that caused her sudden death , im just hoping i follow behind them soon.