I just broke up with my first partner of 2 years. I never knew grief would come with such agonizing guilt. I feel like I'm the bad guy somehow, when it hasn't even been 24 hours, and I can't stop crying. I still love and care for him deeply, but my choice was driven by wanting our mental health to improve before going any further. The jealousy was becoming overbearing, others were growing tense, and I, tired. Yet we also were each others everything, however I just so happened to be the anchor. When something went wrong I felt like it was my fault, even now I feel I should've done more than I already had, but I'm no professional. Maybe in the future there will be improvement, possibly even a second chance, who knows. I surely don't. I just feel like a piece of me was taken yet it was a clean understanding and we're remaining cival in the meantime. Is it just too early in the process for this pain to go away? I just need to know everything will be okay.