im so fucking scared of my brother. I see him in the hallway and I start having suicidal thoughts again when I'm in my room, and I haven't had any in a long time :/ It's just so confusing, one day he is really nice to me, next day he treats me like shit. I don't know how to feel about it, it's so confusing, i hate him so much but i also want to be him in way??? I don't want to be an asshole like him, maybe its just because we're siblings, i dont know, im scared and confused. Sometimes when he enters a room, I even get so scared, like say I'm having a conversation, I can't speak anymore until he's gone :(
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