I feel like such a loser it's not even funny. Even the so called 'losers' in middle school are now going to parties, have friends, they go out while I stay here with my social anxiety making it impossible to meet my two friends in big events with lots of people. My best friend says she would like to see me more but she's always hanging out with her best friends. I try to convince myself I'm not jealous but I clearly am. Who wouldn't be, even a little. I don't do anything productive either, like I draw, dance, write but the skills aren't there for any of my hobbies. Biggest things I achieved in life are graduating, and learning a 3rd language. Which is english, so it's not that hard let's be honest. I wish I was good at something, wheter it be art, dancing, talking to people, being social, writing, making friends I'll take anything I just want to be good at something. I'm not even pretty so I can't even use that to have people around me, even fake people just there for my looks.