I don’t like myself as my body feels weird to me like I’m going to get hurt like i did when i was younger my body is not my own so why touch it like you own it my body is not mine I was sexually abused at a very young age and then one of my older ex best friends showed me porn and I couldn’t do anything to stop it I just got addicted to it I began to touch myself and I felt dirty and disgusting so why don’t I stop myself from killing myself before anyone else touchs it