i have an immense anger for everyone and everything, everything eats me alive and i feel like everybody just secretly hates me if i could disappear from this lifetime, i would, every-time i seem to explain myself it just gets worse and worse and nobody truly understands me everyone thinks im trying to make excuses or that im bullshitting, nobody believes me, my life is utterly useless and whats the point of even being here when nobody wants to even listen to me truly for once its like im talking to a brick wall, i hate people, and i hate socializing cause everything goes to shit