I'm so sad that I'm never going to be loved the way I desperately crave to be loved... I'm so sad that it took me 30+ years to figure out what I need and want and now there is no way it can happen to me. There's too much in the way now, too much baggage, too much trauma, too many years... I'm just not a desirable person by any stretch, and it's too late. I wish I knew in my 20s what I know now but it feels like it's too late now and I don't think I'll ever get to experience a love that doesn't feel transactional or forced. It really sucks.
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