i'm trapped, all the other kids like vacation, i haven't left home in months, i don't shower anymore, everyday tasks are hard, i ain't allowed social media or nothing, just roblox which is laggy and doesn't work, we're too poor for yummy food, i just want happiness, we never leave the house, i know she is trying her best but idk man, i feel like when i am an adult it will be better, unlike some people say. she just controls me but yeah i am useless and have no purpose or control over anything in my life, sometimes i just feel like seaweed, you know like when you're swimming in the ocean? and the seaweed breaks off the seaweed vine in the sand, and just ends up floating and cannot swim, it has no purpose, i can relate. oh that also brings me to the fact that i don't wanna seem like a weirdo. school starts soon and i just long for human connection. i can easily remember moments of pure joy when someone laughs at my joke or gets my reference. but yeah, i guess this is just called lonely.