I cant stop relapsing. I dont think im gonna make it to 40 if i keep living like this but i cant stop like i genuinely cant. ive been ⭐️ving and vomiting for a while and it never gets better. It just fluctuates easily . It started when i was 8. Im now 15. And all this looksmaxxing bs on tiktok is triggering me so bad. my organs physically hurt and i can tell ive done damage. My teeth hurt from all the stomach acid. its never enough i just want a better body but i cant really achieve that. And everyone brushes it off telling me that i have a perfrct body. But i know i dont and i know they pity me . My arms are huge. My shoulders are broad and they dont align with my hips, my jawline is fucked, my cheekbones arent that visible, my neck/chest/collarbones arent visible. My waist looks huge but im not sure if thats true . and my Legs are way too short for me to be living with this weight and this amount of fat. I need to lose weight so my legs look decent.