I fucking dislike my father and I feel so fucking ungrateful while doing so because my friends live in much more difficult family context but I just cannot like him. He's always needs attention and skinship and I dislike both of these things, he literally is so proud of himself and always pretends to know abc about my life when I just wanna be left alone. He takes pills because of his depression or whatsoever and I just hate myself for feeling like this so much like what he must have been through but when I was being bullied he just said to ignore them and I was 12 self-harming. I feel like a fucking slave in this house, I can barely have time for myself when he's here cause he needs all of the attention and he just makes me feel like I'm just there. Yk, I'm kind, reliable and generous but little does he know that I fucking despite myself to the core because of the bulling I went through and I'm barely surviving this summer. I wanna live alone.