I’m very tired of living right now and I feel like I’ve devolved so badly at a person. Everything scares me, and even stuff that should be “fun” makes me feel kind of ill. I don’t like leaving the house, and I especially don’t like driving, but I have to do both tomorrow and in places where I haven’t really been. It’s because a friend is in town and we haven’t seen each other in a long time, but it might not just be us (so a stranger will be part of things bc she asked if they could come along) and then part of the time is now going to be dedicated to her personal business instead of us just hanging out… and I know I just sound like I’m whining and like a bad friend, but I just can’t help it. I guess I need to reframe the whole situation so it’s less distressing to me but ah. Man I don’t know. Maybe I just suck. I should be better at a lot of things, but I’m not.