my sister hates me. my dad barely knows me. one of my best friends pretends I don't exist when shes around other friends. i'm feel getting worse at my sport. I'm scared of messing up. I'm scared i'm never going to be good enough. there's so much more I don't know how to write. there's so many people who are dealing with 100% worse things than I am, but it feels good to get it off my chest.