im so sorry but i cant do ts anymore i js wanna die. i dont wanna be here anymore. i dont think anyone cares. but guess who dont have no reason to be depressed? moi. im not lgbtq, i get relatively good grades, i go to a private school, i do gymnastics, im not shit at it. i cant do this anymore. its gotten to the point where i have written my letters, calcuated how much of what i need to take and dont even know if imma wake up tmrw. but its been like this for ages now. like ik ppl have it worse and it js makes me feel hella guilty but how am i supposed to tell someone in person that i cut myself 42 times one day and then 31 the next? dont say text cus my parents go through my texts. idk what to do. i feel so fucking alone i js wanna fucking die im only here cus my friend is worse than me and it hasnt worked for them yet but i feel more at peace because ik they have attempted before so im getting closer so i dont have to wait any longer. i cant do this. i literally cant.