I don’t think I’m getting better anytime soon I feel so empty all the time and it makes me hurt myself I cry for everything and it’s pathetic I want to go to sleep and never wake up again I don’t see a future for myself. Now I have to start thinking about my future but it’s so difficult when I didn’t believe I would be alive for this long I’m so young. I potentially have a life ahead of me. I wish I could give my life to someone who actually wants one because every second I like is a wasted moment, a wasted breath, that someone out there years to have I feel so selfish for taking everything I have for granted but honestly this left is being wasted away as I write these meaningless words written by a 16 year old and will be forgotten. I wish I had a diagnosis for what I’m feeling because I feel like a stranger in my own skin. I want my brain to be separated from my head so for once I would be at peace with myself. I can’t even look in the mirror anymore from being disgusted by my self