My mental health is getting way worse. I haven’t showered in a week. (I know disgusting.) I feel so disgusting. Like icky. Like I’m so fucking disgusted with myself. Everyone I know is leaving and i can’t stop it from not happening. It hurts so much. I just feel like I’m drowning and I can’t get back up cuz I’m too deep to be saved. I’m so fucking jealous of people who are perfectly okay in life and are normal. I’m anything but normal. I’m poison. I come from poison. And everything I touch ends up falling apart and become poison. I’m so tierd of living, it’s so exhausting. It’s the same thing every single day. I wake up, I go to the bathroom, I eat, I scroll TikTok. I jst feel so alone. Like no one cares I’m here so if I would jst kill myself then I wouldn’t have to feel the feeling in my chest and stomach. I just hate waking up jst for it to be the same thing every single fucking day. How do people do this everyday? How. I can barely survive like this. What’s so normal about Ts???