It hurts no matter how many od pills i take no matter how much i cut it js hurts so bad,Will i make it till yaer 9?js live a one more day is wht i say everyday but hwo much longer i feel nauseas i dont like eating i dont like outside i hate ppl im so bitter and guilty. I wish it would hurt less. I'm so tired. I don't feel special going through this pain knowing there r so many. It makes me feel like it doesn't matter. Someone pls tell me to live on,ik I'm asking this shamelessly, but pls, I want to make it till year 9.