i dont really understand how i feel. i hate myself so deeply, but i think im funny, cute, or i feel like im a good person. ive been dpressed for around five years now, and ive started to feel comfort in my depression. i cant explain it. im so used to it and now i feel like i dont want to leave. i like having something to cry about. i think im like this because if i get better, i never know when the ground is going to crumble underneath me. i never know when im going to fall back into that dark place that i tried so hard to leave. i never know when everyone will leave and ill be left with nothing
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