I was so in love with you, everyday at school when i saw your beautiful brown eyes i felt safe. I felt like as long as i saw you i would be fine, all my anxiety faded away. yet you never really cared did you. you say we're friends and say we love eachother in the platonic sense. but what was it really. what was it. what was it when you got mad over the fact we couldn't sleep in the same bed bc ur mom found out i was gay? what was it when even your best friend thought we were dating over how non friendly we acted. what was it when you would notice anything new about me. what was it when you were scared to tell me you broke up with your boyfriend. what was it when you always wanted to hold my hand. what was it when you KNEW you were making me feel things, making me confused. but still did it. still looked at me with adortion. still looked at me in any room. I AM SO TIRED of this. okay? you don't know how much it hurts to see uwith your girlfriend talking with her but ur eyes are on me.