im so fuckin jealous and petty and bitter over how much my bf puts time/energy/focus into committee work/hanging out with friends more than anything involving our relationship. Anniversaries are forgotten, birthdays are planned by me, all talk about trips and vacations and doing things together as a couple are just that. I've expressed wanting to get married and he allegedly agrees but nothing has moved forward on that. Despite having the means to change our lives we're not taking any drastic leaps and its the same thing over and over every day. Its clear these committee meetings and spending time with friends are what he's passionate about, the things he actually wants to do, and this relationship is just an afterthought. At worst I feel like I'm his roommate that he'll have sex with when he's in the mood (and only when he's in the mood) who also cleans up after him. There is no romance, there is no courting, no passion. I wish I had the means to live on my own sometimes.