TW: MH,SH,SI I have struggled with depression since i was 9 along with unalive thoughts and actions, i had asked my mom if i could possibly have depression, she said it was impossible so i moved on, during my parents divorce, i began SH and was taken to a therapist, this therapist diagnosed me with BPD. My mom said she was crazy and wouldnt tell me the diagnoses till i was 17. I went unmedicated for anything till i had a huge mental breakdown at 16 which cause me to do irreparable damage to by body with SH and unalive attempts. I had many manic episodes which caused most of the damage. I also developed what i believe is OCD in which everyone i've asked including 2 people who were diagnosed agree. I asked my therapist and he called it a phobia. (I've gone through 6 therapist at this point) at this point, since i was 12 aside from when i was 16, i have hidden any mental issues i've had to not risk the mental hospital. How to I communicate that i am struggling to make her listen?