Even though I'm constantly surrounded by friends I constantly feel alone. Either while i'm with them or as soon as I get home. I get really upset because I barely get any texts anymore and the one person that did talk to me randomly stopped, no explanation. But I also have a bad habit of being afraid to text people first so I'm kind of contradicting myself. But I'm always scared all of my friends are secretly annoyed with me and that they're just praying for me to shut up or leave. But my brain also tells me I have no reason to be sad, I have a good home life i'm I get pretty decent grades in school and there's nothing wrong with me yet I still feel empty all of the time. I've thought I'd gotten better but I was just distracting myself. My brain labels me as an attention seeker.