i'm always afraid to let people know how i truly feel, although i vent at times. but there's always a feeling i'm just forcing myself to vent. a feeling of needing to always put on a smile and laugh and pretend that i'm okay to not make things awkward with my family and friends. i'm afraid of being a burden all the time. the least i could do is make them feel comfortable. i know i'm not okay. i force myself to think i'm okay, just so i could move on. have i moved on? have i healed? i don't know how to answer myself anymore. i used to see so brightly, but now it just looks dull. i feel dull. who even am i?
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